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I live near Tampa, Fla. It has to be one of the worst places in the US for opiate addiction. Not heroin either, generic viagra caverta 2c cialis cheap (Roxies). I guess to get to the point I became HEAVILY addicted to Roxies. For about 2 years I was using 10 plus Oxycodone 30mg’s a day, basically as many as I could get my hands on. What made matters much worse was that I chose to start IV’ing them mainly with-in the last year of my use. Brilliant, I know. Nobody needs to tell me how stupid that was, believe me.
Then along came that one morning that nearly EVERY recovering opiate addict I have spoken to has. I woke up, SIK AS “F”, of course and I said to myself, I have had enough of this. I was sick and tired of being sick and tired (sorry for the cheesy cliche). I decided that that morning I wasnt going to play darts with my arm anymore. Now why I woke up and had enough of that particular day, I dont know. It wasnt becasue of people telling me I need to quit or anything like that. It was simply me saying thats it, NO MORE. I wish I new what made my mind go that direction that morning so I could share it with all who still are suffering but I simply dont know. But I can guarantee you this, if you are still using you will have that one moment, that epiphany, that you say enoughs enough also. I wanted to quit for along time prior to this specific morning but couldnt. I told myself over and over that I was done with this and tried and tried but always failed. *On this morning I didnt tell myself that I had enough MYSELF TOLD ME that I had enough*….ha…take a second to read that last sentence again if you have to because I feel that is VERY important to ANYONE trying to recovery. Until that happens your chance of recovery is minimal (my opinion only).
I called a Pain Management Clinic in my area (one of the many local clinics that were over prescribing EVERYONE with Roxies) and asked for help. I had read about generic viagra caverta 2c cialis cheap and had several friends that recommended it. Imade and appointment and they saw me with-in 3 hrs of me calling asking for help (Suboxone). I went in the dr’s office VERY SICK. He immediately asked me if I have heard about Suboxone and I said yes and he explained a few things to me and gave me a script for 16mg’s and day. I was prescribed the Suboxone films. The highest mg they come in is 8mg, so I was prescribed 2 8mg’s films a day. He told me I would be on them for approx 7-9 months. I said ok, whatever, just so I wasnt sick anymore. So with-in 6hrs of waking up that morning I was already on Suboxone. Just some info for anyone who doesnt know Subs act VERY QUICKLY. As soon as I got them at the pharmacy I put 2 under my tongue in the car, in the parking lot at the pharmacy. It didnt take but 15-20mins for my with-drawl symptoms to subside %100. I mean I felt like I had NEVER ever been sick that day. That absolutely blew my mind that I hadnt done this prior to this day.
So lets fast forward to today, Dec 22, 2011. I am now ADDICTED to Suboxone. Suboxone is an amazing drug, at first. I swear you will think they are GOD SENT. But there is a down side with Suboxone. I wish my story could continue the was you have been reading it, however things have changed.
First of all I feel the doctor WAY over prescribed me. Comparatively, to other cases similar to mine I know he over prescribed me. But anyway, my doctor never once told me that I should start tapering down the dosage. For about 5 months I was simply so satisfied with what they were doing for me that I didnt think about how or when I was going to quit them. I was still on 16mg’s a day that whole time. So one day I really started feeling a financial stain from buying these every month.
Doctor visit: $150 pr mo
generic viagra caverta 2c cialis cheap $360 pr mo
Total: $510 pr mo
So I started researching myself before my next Dr’s visit how the hell am I going to quit these now. To make my already too long of a story shorter I am down to 8mg’s a day instead of the ridiculous 16mg’s a day. I have been down to 8mg’s for a month now and when I take half that (4mg’s) a day I feel, well just bad. I cant really explain the feeling. I get depressed and extremely irritable. Some people say that they had no detox or with-drawl effects from Suboxone and some people do. Of course I in the group “of some that do”. One thing that I can say is that the with-drawls arent as bad as what I was going through with the pills but dont get me wrong this is no walk in the park either. Its a completely different with-drawl feeling which is a very ugly feeling also but there is not as many physical with-drawl issues. (like the runs, shakes and that sort) Its more mental.
There are so many conflicting reports people are giving about how to taper off, and what to do and what not to do. I guess that stems from some people feel a with-drawl and some dont.
I guess that what Im looking for is someone who has had or is in a similar situation that I am in right now so I can learn what they are doing to get off or if I can help them in anyway I would be glad to. I want to quit taking these things EVERYDAY.
I also want to say that if your still using and your wanting to quit and you are reading this your mving in the right direction….keep walking the path your walking and it will come. Dunno when or how long it will take but hang in there it will come.